El Silencio

Dissolving ignorance by realizing something is discovering oneself, revealing oneself so that Consciousness reveals itself.

When my children had grown up a bit, I started working at the multinational company and learned from scratch. One day, standing between two aisles, I said, what am I doing here, if this is not what really makes me happy, there was no point in continuing for more money

and best job offers I had received, I came to Spain in 2009.

And I continued to experience more pain, sadness, anger, etc., love did not flow, the lack of employment was accentuated, circumstances, changes and stick after stick. Life felt intensely. I studied some courses and I didn't finish fitting in with that something that I saw in people, felt and that I couldn't identify yet.

After a few years, one day I offered my gifts to God and said thank you, but no thank you, I can't take it anymore. And no, I am not a story, nor a victim, nor enlightened, nor anything, I did and followed my interior despite the circumstances and the opinion of many, critics and others, I did not doubt, nor did I ask myself what I felt, saw, I heard, I intuited, I followed because I have and was certain that something inside me knows and guides me.

I did not question the certainties that I felt, I trusted that God would know and so, I only knew that my limited mind did not understand it.

Un diciembre 2017 dije de corazón:

• ¡Quiero Ser!

• ¡Quiero Vivir Viva! 

• ¡Quiero Ser Libre!

Y me olvidé. En Enero 2018 fué como.... quieres chocolate, toma 3 tasas. Pasé disolviendo conceptos observando desde el corazón, en silencio, estando presente. Un día, le pedí a Dios una explicación de lo que estaba viviendo, porque no entendía que vivía, solo sabía y sentía que estaba bien. Una amistad me sugiere ver un video y al escuchar, comprendí y agradecí. 

Estaba absorta en lo que me vivía, sentía y sabía que Dios me guiaba y las frases aparecían de forma natural, como:

Todo lo que necesito saber se me revela.

And my interior was calm.

After a while I only remember that in an instant the unnameable was shown, I tried to name That, but it erased all names, I saw books go by, you know and see that I am not my body, there is no me, I have no sex, I am not old and I am of all ages, I do not belong to anything or anyone and yet I am in the field of consciousness.

You know that death is life and that it is not relevant because you are passing through, you know and feel that you have been since before the word, that you have lived many lives and that what you are has no beginning or end, that you are permanently alive in everything , there are no pronouns, I asked myself who am I? my name was empty and just said your will be done.

I felt to be the girl of God, so much Love and I heard you are the apple of my eyes. I stood still, and I asked myself and now what am I going to work on? Suddenly, I felt a great compassion for humanity and an absorption of pain, I felt and saw Jesus and Buddha almost at the same moment. I was grateful for feeling and seeing in the Grace of the Holy Spirit the Truth, always present in every human being.

And in the midst of my ignorance with no one to talk to, I did what I could. I remembered that many years ago I offered myself before God even as a child. It was something strange, perhaps even painful, to break the silence and return to speak and interrelate after almost 1 month, I did not understand many things, I let it be and continued.

You don't know how to live yourself, and the words trust, freedom, love, joy, wisdom and many others,

they are implicitly integrated into the Being, if you say an attribute you are calling everyone because there is no separation, there is a Whole

and you are not defining yourself, you are being.

Other words attachment, release, ego, and many more, do not exist. What is born in me at any moment… is playing, dancing, singing and observing the consciousness that reveals itself. You feel e you sense that you have to grow.....

What you already are, you always have been and will be, I point it out to you and you choose the path. I am present for guidance, if you need it, but remember to listen to your heart, your intuition and make yourself your own teacher to wake up and after waking up, you will listen or know that it is a new beginning. You too will wake up from your character.

I am being in the game of consciousness that unfolds revealing itself and at the same time reflecting itself like an illusory mirror to reaffirm the essence that I am, in the Common Union of the Divine Presence.  Being the witness of that and absorbed by the non-witness in the limitless space of no time. That which unfolds before you, nameless and Sacred. Unique, simple, eternal complete silence.